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Dec 7, 2017:
A Chemo Day
I’m having a very happy and grateful day. But whoa… I’m realizing so many metaphors. Why can’t it just be straight forward? I'm really going to have to process and work for this one. The images were so beautiful. Christ was always so central, so consistent, so always, so generous, such a good father, so patient, so big (such a tiny word), so beautiful. The lines, the house or building, the shape-changing, the realities of structure, the lies, the promises, the truth, the realities. I feel so small. I’m surrounded by more than the people who walk this planet currently. I don’t know what to say about that. I’m lonely. If I can fix on Jesus and his outline in these images, it doesn’t feel bad anymore. I feel stronger… safe, like I belong. We all need to realize the lines of untruth will always be shape-changing. Christ is in the center, knowing outside of Himself, there are lies (house/structure/ building) being redrawn, coming and/or going… white disappearing. Choose now whom you will serve!
Processing. . . .
I have a nervous excitement and happiness.
Oh gosh. The irrelevance of things in our lives that we’ve been conditioned to believe are so important…are so not! Evil folks have an agenda, but it’s totally insignificant to my life, to your life. I am CHOOSING to trust that which God has shown me. I have so many more things to focus my energy on. My time is more valuable. I am more valuable. Your time is more valuable. You are more valuable. We ignorantly were submissive to be enslaved by lies, rather than the truth God is GIVING us …just because he loves! But once we understand that fact, not just know it but understand it, there’s responsibility within us.
Thousands, no billions +, of realities are at the ready to embrace and I’m a speck on one of those realities. Okay, this next thing is silly, but why can't I see all the realities on all the levels at the same time, so I can choose where I want to “level on”. I know it's already at my disposal. I've only got a few seconds. I’m on the level where Steven took me, to show me myself.
Who the heck am I? Thank you for being so patient with me. I know my thoughts, understandings, and language will mature. I’m trying really hard to process and understand what I’m seeing and learning about all of this. I’m struggling with some of the picture metaphors I’ve been shown today. Ideas and facts are being realized but I can’t categorize them fast enough. It’s always so emotional because I want to be smart and discerning enough (…and worthy enough) to process well enough to share… if I’m ever called on to do such a thing. You know that saying, “to whom much is given, much is required.”…? I want to be at the ready. Immediately.
Yep, just another chemo day.
A response from my daughter, Colleen:
Don't underestimate the power of planting a seed, Mom. You could be the catalyst between them and this consciousness.
Another response from a young Friend:
I love this! I'm right there with you. A wild different stream of confused amazed expanding wonder. Thanks for sharing. Don't ever worry about "immature language" or not being smart. We're all in the same boat here. Trying to throw strings of words around an expanding experience that lies beyond language.
Me:
This has been quite a season for both of us. I’m looking forward to the new year. I’m younger today than I’ve ever been.
My young Friend:
The Body has been held in fear for so long. As each member awakens and relaxes off the protection of constriction, healing light flows through to enliven those who aren't able yet. You're beautiful momma :)
Me:
I agree. I think the church put God in a box. In my life, I let him out to live in me. I can now know Him and know me…for the first time.