An Update After Surgery
February 2, 2017
In January 2017, I had surgery to remove the cancer masses in my abdomen. The following text is a message I sent to a friend.
Me:
I'm sorry I've been so out of it. I'm on some medication until my staples gets removed. Super painful, but everyday gets easier. They had to take my appendix also. On Tuesday, I'll find out when my chemo starts again. The next four days, until I get my staples out, it’ll be nerve-racking. My skin is shrinking around the staples and pulling badly when I move. I'm going to be bold and just ask you to pray that I just don't feel it. This is all so humbling. God is so amazing. So merciful. So loving. I really do see the joy in all of this!
God is SO amazing. He loves us so much. How could he love THAT much? I look at my grandchildren and my children and think I have a clue. THEN He enlightens me as to where I really am. I can't even see the MOST, where his love is. Hard to explain.
These chemo day images and experiences are familiar, just not as colorful or intense. I guess it's lighter… in a way. God sways me where he wants my brain to go. It definitely feels like a sway. I wish so much I could talk to Steven about this. RIGHT NOW. I think I will!
I know that all sounds a little fantastical, but I feel I have to say it out loud before something special is lost.