The Chemo Day Where I Floated
Nov 10, 2017
It was a long wait for my blood work to come back in order for me to start chemo. I saw that Shane, my chemo buddy, came in and I made a mental note to visit with him as soon as I had the chance. Chemo started and my daughter, Colleen left the hospital. I started praying that God would use this time to bring me to a place of learning about ANYTHING, although I felt like nothing would happen today.
I was nearly asleep and unbelievably, my consciousness began floating over my body. I looked below and saw MYSELF asleep. I was in the same shape and form as I was in my infusion chair. Reclined. Then a third me (Colleen, later described this to possibly be the Holy Spirit within me) started giving the floating me directions.
Third Me:
Roll over. Look at yourself.
Floating Me:
No.
Third Me:
Look now!
Floating Me:
No. No. I’m tired. Stop it.
Third Me:
LOOK!
Floating Me:
No.
Third Me:
I’m not leaving till you look.
Floating Me:
Okay then.
Third Me:
Tell me what you see. Tell me what matters. What’s important?
Floating me:
I see it! I see it! It’s never a WHAT! It’s always a WHO!
(Looking down, I now saw nothing but people, the world, the planet, and universe of PEOPLE.)
3rd me:
Look how beautiful they are! They are all yours! They are all YOU!
Floating me:
This is too much. I have to go. I’m so tired.
3rd me:
You can go, just don’t ever forget what I’ve shown you. You’ll need this information soon and then always!
Yet another amazing day with God. Within these five minutes of dialog, I experienced hours of conversation. I️ really don’t have a perfect handle or understanding of what happens to me during chemo, but I just don’t care to know the how anymore. I’m accepting these presents from God and trusting that He’ll show me what I’m to do with it all… when He sees fit.
A response from my Friend:
Wow, Donna. Wow! That’s so wild. And it’s not crazy! Although maybe being the person who was experiencing it probably makes it so much more intense. It makes so much sense. Like. So much sense. This is so amazing that God shows you such vivid visions! It’s just so wild!! What a gift!! I love that you share these pieces of God’s heart. It’s just the most interesting and exciting thing. I never feel like my words express it enough. I get so excited for these lessons. “People” is definitely a huge theme. . . and being “still.”
P.S.
I just got approved for disability. Whoohoo!
I’m GOING FOR COFFEE! And I can buy my own Christmas tree! God is so good to me.
It’s just a small thing, but it’s just one more way God is showing me that he’s blessing me for surrendering that worry on chemo day.